Friday, February 24, 2006
haiz...
fell out during pt again lar.
this is already like the dunno how many times liao lar. if outta 40 pts, then i think i fell out during during 36 pts. guess wad happened during the 4 pts tht i didnt fall out? ok let me reminsce (or something liddat lar) the good memories. 1st pt i ever survived: because it was jogging quite slowly and there were breaks lar. so it was not that bad. another time was because we only ran arnd the field like ONCE?? budden i was oso on the verge of falling out liao. and then the other one was log pt lar. like i mentioned lar. we were practically walking lar. the other time i forget liao.
i am such a failure lar. why m i forever falling out?
is it because i am too weak?
or issit because i cant persevere?
why issit that everyone can do it but me?
i feel tht i m a burden to the sqd lar.
what can i do?? whenever i tell myself tht i must not fall out, my stupid lungs just refuse to cooperate. haiz...
wo zhen shi shi bai. even like 3 rounds arnd the field i dying liao lar. some ppl do like its like nothing to them?? obs course oso cannot do.
like miss koh say lar, its not the training that is tough is just tht i m weak lar. but i dun wan!!!
i dun wan to hai the sqd. i dun wan to pull their performance down.
haiz...
saded.
haiz...
fell out during pt again lar.
this is already like the dunno how many times liao lar. if outta 40 pts, then i think i fell out during during 36 pts. guess wad happened during the 4 pts tht i didnt fall out? ok let me reminsce (or something liddat lar) the good memories. 1st pt i ever survived: because it was jogging quite slowly and there were breaks lar. so it was not that bad. another time was because we only ran arnd the field like ONCE?? budden i was oso on the verge of falling out liao. and then the other one was log pt lar. like i mentioned lar. we were practically walking lar. the other time i forget liao.
i am such a failure lar. why m i forever falling out?
is it because i am too weak?
or issit because i cant persevere?
why issit that everyone can do it but me?
i feel tht i m a burden to the sqd lar.
what can i do?? whenever i tell myself tht i must not fall out, my stupid lungs just refuse to cooperate. haiz...
wo zhen shi shi bai. even like 3 rounds arnd the field i dying liao lar. some ppl do like its like nothing to them?? obs course oso cannot do.
like miss koh say lar, its not the training that is tough is just tht i m weak lar. but i dun wan!!!
i dun wan to hai the sqd. i dun wan to pull their performance down.
haiz...
saded.
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